Power of God 2009 Convocation! and also what God's been telling me

This week, beginning the day after my birthday, began the Power of God 2009 Convocation, that begins every summer, between June and July. Next yr, it's going to begin on my birthday :) It's a big week long conference, with famous singers & preachers from all over the country who come and speak at Bethany Baptist Church, in Lindenwold NJ.

Lately, I've been trying to seek the Lord & just stay in His Will. There was a time when I backslid, and God told me something powerful that's changed my perspective. He basically told me that it's not safe playing with God. The same way He has called me to serve Him, He can also replace me with someone who is serious and dedicated to living for Him fully. Since then, I wake up and thank God for everyday He gives me, because that's another day to serve Him & walk with Him once more. Also, He's been speaking to me about being humble & not focusing on my needs, but being like Jesus and serving others unselfishly. A man in my church spoke to me, and I believe God put it on his heart to tell me this, but he told me that I should become a missionary. Honestly, when I was younger, I told myself that I would become a missionary & travel the world telling everyone about Jesus Christ. So I was surprized when he told me that I should become a missionary. I want to be positive this is God's calling on my life, so I'm seeking Him for clarity.

But during this week, the Lord has been telling me a lot of things. He told me that I should be completly open to Him and what He's trying to do in my life. He told me that I should praise Him in the storm. When I'm experiencing trials, the Father should be the first One I call on for help. I shouldn't run, or consent man, but I should run to the house of God first. When things look hard, I should lift Him up anyway. This is the season of the open door. Your open door is behind the enemy. He told me that I should make Him my all-sufficiency. I won't lose my mind when I lose things & people in my life, because Jesus will be all I need; He is the ultimate supplier. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. And tonight, God's been telling me how I can hear Him speak to me, the different types of things He may say, and what impact they have on me. Victory and blessings come from obeying the voice of the Lord, no matter what.

And God's not done speaking yet... ;) One more day & night of the conference & I'm excited about what He's doing. Amen!! :)

Trials

Lately, God has been talking to me a lot. Last Sunday, He was talking to me about faith, and that I need to have real, personal faith that will carry me through my trials and that God can honor. Right now, I'm going through a trial. I found out this weekend that its going to take a long time for me to get the money that I need and I decided to have faith that God would provide. But today, I found out that my loan got cancelled altogether. So now, I have no cosigner to sign for my loans, and I have no loan to pay for my tuition, but I've still decided to believe God that somehow, someway, He's gonna provide everything that I need, in time.

"So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to perservere so that when you have done the will of God, you will recieve what he has promised. For in just a very little while, 'He who is coming will come and not delay. But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him.' But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved." - Hebrews 10:35-39

Summer '08 and MSU

Summer '08 has been a very different summer for me, because first and foremost, I'm going to college this year. Now when it comes to college, I've been all over the place trying to select a college to go to, and many times I kept thinking a certain one was right for me. But out of all the colleges I thought I wanted to attend, I didn't get into any of them ... besides one, Montclair State University. It was just a college out of many that my mom suggested that I apply to. Honestly, I never really thought anything of it, never did any real research concerning it, I just applied ... and I got in. Montclair State University is in North Jersey, which is crazy far. When I first got there (to take my placement test), it was really amazing and I was really excited about being there and seeing it for the first time. There was something intimidating about walking on campus because it was so large, but at the same time on the inside, I was very excited because it had this atmosphere about it that was simply breathtaking and I knew that this was where I needed to be.

Now, to talk about orientation. I woke up at some ungodly hour (5 AM) and had to call mom to wake her up. I hit the shower and got dressed and fixed my hair and got everything that I needed, and in about an hour or so, mom showed up. So me, daddy, and mommy got in the car, and soon we were on our way. Of course, we had to stop at Wawa to get some breakfast lol, and after that, we drove a long 2 hour and a half drive all the way to the campus. On the way there, I was really excited and couldn't wait to meet other freshman, but once we got on campus, my stomach began to drop. Once inside the Student Center, I could feel the "college atmosphere" and it was awesome. They served us continental breakfast and it was pretty good =) but before I knew it, it was time to sign in. The line was incredibly long and there were a tonnn of freshman standing around. After I signed in, me and my parents went to this huge room where they had different stations and you can talk to people about the different services and things the school has to offer. And yess, I saw 2 cute guys along the way ;] One was at the Rave station (about phones for school) and the other was at the intermural sports station ... and heck yess, you know I was lovin' it lol. After that, we went to this small auditorium where they gave the parents and students a welcoming speech and told us some information about the college and some other things. Then it was time for the students to meet our peer leader. My peer leader was a sophmore named Lissette, who's Columbian. There was several other people in my group; Jamie, Antonio, Ryan, Nathan, and Mark. We played some games and icebreakers and it was a lot of fun. The only person I talked to (tried to get to know) was Jamie ... at least that's some progress lol.

To make a long story short, I went to many different rooms and buildings, and they talked to us about school safety, dorming and what we should and shouldn't bring, students code of conduct, how to register for classes, I met my academic first-year counciler, and I even saw a skit on some of the many things that could happen while living on campus. All in all, it was a very pleasant experience and I had a really nice time (and I got to see one of the cute guys before I left lol). Even though it was nice, hours after returning home, I felt terrified because I was afraid of starting over, having to make new friends, and while I was there I felt very left out ... but even so, people were telling me that I would survive, and I'm not going to die, but that I'm going to make new friends, and have fun and how it's going to be the best year of my life, and some other stuff. So now I'm reallyy excited to go to school and I can't wait !

18 daysss left ! heck yess <3

Last night was a mess.
Why?
Because of a boy.
A boy who was stupid enough to think he could lie and get away with it.
But to make the story short,
he got caught.
Liars always get caught.
If you lie to us, you WILL get found out.
Us girls aren't stupid. And if you think we are, then think again.
Cause we will find you out...

lol i'm thinking of the show COPS and the movie JAWS...
lol and yess i'm slow :]



"sorry...you don't play us. we play you."

College?

Yesterday and today, I went to college and it was really fun:] I went to Temple University and the University of the Sciences in Philadelphia. I'd rather go to Temple cuz the UOTSIP seems so serious lol ... not that you shouldn't be serious about school, but it seemed ALL serious, and no fun time:]
Next weekend, I'm going to Drexel which should be REALLY fun, cuz I'm dyin to go there:] School's tomorrow and I DON'T feel like going, but I have to neway. At least it's a short week:] But um, that's all for now.



"So she dances, in and out of the crowd like a glance.<3"

School year 07-08

I haven't written on here in a while..well, this school year so far has been very different. Yes, because it's Senior year [WOO!] but I don't know..can't really explain it, it just feels so different from previous years. My classes this semester are Physics, Yearbook, Economics, and Bible. I LOVEE having Bible 4th period =]. Anyways, those classes are OK. It's been a lot of work cuz I get homework everyday, which is good for me [cuz it keeps me on my toes && alert]. On top of all this "good stuff", I lyk someone new..and "old" friend sort of..well, he's not really an old friend..a "new" friend i could say. Well, he's cute [to me], he's really funny, smart, very talented [multi-talented], taller than me lol, nice, and loves the Lord--what more could I ask for?! lol--he's all around an awesome guy. So life is pretty good at this point :] but there's still some things i have to get in orderr...until next time, laterrr<33

The New Baby<3333

I have a new little brother, and he was born yesterday =]] I'm so0o0o happy becuz I L0V33 babies! Yesterday was SUCH a long day..it felt like 2 days went by, literally. I thought today was Tuesday, so I was freaking out, thinking tomorrow was school lol. But umm, life so far has been good. I came back from vacation in Virginia and it was a lott of fun :]] We went to Busch Gardens and Water Country USA..I did a lot of swimming and I loved it lol. Well, school is in 2 days and I'm so0o not ready haha. I thought I was, but I'm not. Anyways, that's all for now. Later<3333