Time to grow up, perhaps?

Right now, I'm taking a look at my life and I realize that I need to grow up. But at the same time, nothing is going right and nothing is going as planned. And I can't stand how I act like a child half the time. I can't seem to grow up and be mature like everyone else. And I hate it. I'm tired of these ups and downs..that's all it is. Ups and downs all the time. I'm tired of it. Time to move on...

What's going on???

I dont know why im still up, but i am lol. I'm not even tired and its superrr late in the morning and I have to wake up early too. God's doing something in my life...I just wish I knew what He was doing, exactly. All I know is that He's probably not happy with me right now..but there's some stuff I'm dealing with and as much as I pray, I still can't stand certain pple, they get on my LAST nerve, and there's nothing I can do to change that. Yeah, it's unforgiveness, but it's like God's not lifting a finger to help. And then it's my fault that I can't forgive them...that seems unfair to me. Anyways, I didn't go to the movies, and the person hasn't picked up their phone alll week long. It's obviously God, I just wish I knew what He was up to. I was extremly pissed today, cause I was trying to figure out what exactly is God doing, but He wouldn't tell me. I don't know what to do. I don't know whether what I'm going thru is a test or not. I think it is, but at the same time, I'm not quite sure. Hopefully, I can get some answers soon. I'm gonna try and get some sleep. Laterrr<3

SUMMER `07 !!!!!

So far in life, I think this is the best summer so far :] Yeah, there has been a lot of stupid drama, but It's really started to settle down and stuff..now I don't want summer to end! haha :] There's a lot of stuff that I HAVE to do before the summer's over, and honestly, I don't feel like doing anything..I kinda wish this could be another normal, with another normal school year, but it's not..it's never gonna be normal ever again. So far, i've dropped a stupid relationship and met someone new, got the book for my permit, and am ((was)) studying for the upcoming SAT's. I'm scared to death to take the SAT's again because I don't think I did so good..and according to my mom, NO college is gonna accept the score that I got, previously. About my love life! lol..I met this really great guy, and he's nice, cute, funny, and all that good stuff...the COMPLETE opposite of that jerkface that I used to go out with...anyways, yeah, so life's pretty good at this point. Oh yeah, and my relationship with God is in good condition :] And so, I'm happy about that too :) Yeah, so that's it, up to this point..Laterr<33

RISSA<3